Feeling Body Confident in my two piece Kortni Jeane Swimsuit
It has been a hot minute since I posted on my blog and for that I’m sorry. I was feeling overwhelmed and stressed with all of the “to-do’s” on my list and so the blog had to take a bit of a break for the summer. However, the weather is starting to cool off and fall is in the air so it’s time to start fresh and bring you all some exciting new content! Now, before we’re all totally into fall let’s make these final days of summer count and get ourselves out to the beach, park, soaking up warm afternoons in sundresses and eat ALL the ice cream.
For years I had a hard time with summer. I didn’t want to show off all of those little places on my body that didn’t look like all of the girls in magazines. My arms and calves were too fat, my thighs covered in stretch marks, and I had this cavernous belly button. Summer dresses made me feel uncomfortable, bathing suits were out of the question, and a tank top was a definite no. It really took me years to come around to feeling more confident in my body, and I say “more” on purpose because of course I still have hard days.
Adding summer dresses and tank tops was an easy first step for me that I managed to do years ago, although it took a lot of effort to not say hurtful things in the mirror to myself when I’d catch a glimpse of my arms. Bathing suits on the other hand took me until last summer to finally lose the cover up on the bottom, and this summer was the first time since high school that I put on a two piece—huge shout-out and thank-you to Kortni Jeane who gifted me this incredible suit that I can feel totally confident in!
You’re all scratching your heads and thinking, “yeah great you feel better about your body, but how?” well it took a lot of effort and is still taking me so much effort. First, it’s stopping those awful intrusive thoughts that want to tell you what’s wrong with you and turning them into something positive. “My arms are so fa…..strong! I can carry my 30 pound toddler on one side!” “My stomach is covered in stretch mar….beautiful reminders of carrying this child inside me for 9 months”. It takes effort to turn these thoughts around, trust me, but it has done wonders for me. I also started to realize that I didn’t want anything to stop me from having fun with my son. I didn’t want to be focusing on covering myself up instead of running and jumping around with him. Finding your perfect fit in clothing is also a must. Don’t let a size scare you! They are meaningless. I have a closet full of clothing from size 6 through 12. Seriously I do! That’s such a huge range! try on multiple sizes at a store, close your eyes and don’t look at the tag if it helps, and find pieces that you feel great in.
When I reached out to Kortni Jeane to see if they wanted to collaborate I was so excited that they had the option to buy mix and match sizing for tops and bottoms. This was actually one of the main reasons I stopped buying two pieces because I could never find one that fit correctly. I also loved the option to match with my family, but we’re a bit nerdy and that’s definitely a story for a different day. I love my suit from Kortni Jeane, I feel confident in it and sexy and that is exactly how we should all feel when we put on our clothes, no matter our size, where we carry our weight, or our stretch mark situation.
Now here’s the thing. I know I’m not the worst case scenario or that my issues were necessarily a mental health issue. There are so many extremes to body issues and I think it’s very important that we try to measure our severity and seek professional help when we need it. Mental health is so important and is something that we can’t always control without help. Help from medication or from seeing a therapist. I just wanted to put that out there because I don’t expect everyone to be able to just tell themselves positive thoughts and it all gets better, and you shouldn’t feel broken or hurt if that happens with you. We all have our struggles.
I hope that you have the opportunity to slip on a sexy swimsuit or sundress and walk out your door feeling gorgeous and confident. We all deserve to feel good in our bodies and fu*k what anyone else thinks because they’re just jealous anyway.